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What Makes Me Happy...

There Are Many Things That Put A Smile On My Face;

My Love
My Friends
My Family

I Could Go On Forever,

But I Yet, I Shouldn't Have Reasons To Be Happy,

I Should Be Happy, In Plain General.

Because There Are Others That Would Give For What I Have,
Life is Cruel,It's A Battle, But Still A Gift.
It Can Give Rewards When You Fight Back Against It...

Thanks For Reading ~

My Friends...

I Write This For You Guys...

All Of You Were There When I Was In The Dirt, You Were always there when I was depressed. You Guys Always had me put a smile on my face, thats right, my smiles weren't fake when I was with yous. I always just put the bad shit behind me whenever I'm with you guys, you guys make my life complete, you give it a purpose, you make it worth living. I Will never Forget You guys.

So In Return;

I Will Run out of my own boundaries for you, I would do all of my effort to make you guys smile when you are down. I Will be the one you guys need to go to when your down in the dumps. I Will Do All I can to make your lives worth living and to see your smiles.


No Words can Describe how much I'm grateful to you guys,

Thank You
So Much <3


Liam
Jason
Lisa
Brenda
Hiep
Ethan
And So So Much More

Time Away...~

Sigh, Today's The Worst Day ever...

I Got My School Report, My Dad Blasted at me for it, it wasn't good to him.
And I Just Got Nothing To Seriously Feel Happy About...
I'm A Failure.

I Just Feel So Down, I Feel Like My Life Is Falling Apart, Like I Have No Purpose.
My Friends Aren't Helping Either, They're giving me shit at a time when I need to fucking cheer up, But they're making it worse.

I Seriously Think I'm All Alone Now...

Back To When I Was Young, I Never Had friends, I was Alone, I never felt love from my Parents, I never made any friends.

It Was A Time Of My Life Where I Felt Nothing But Loneliness..

Right Now..

I Just Want To Get Away, Start Fresh, Become a new person, Find people to love and to be loved by...

Trapped~

Why...

My Friends are just pricks, they just fucking think about themselves most of the time, and I have to put up with their shit or I have no friends at all...
My Family Are Worse, They Give Me So Much Shit, and I can't do anything but take it. Cause The Last Time I Didn't take it and fought back...Dad almost had a heart attack. And I Can't let that happen.

I Guess I'm Trapped In A World Of Pain and In A World Of Hurt...

What Can I Do?

Wish...

I Wish For Someone Who Is Similar To me, In personality.
I Wish For Someone With A Heart, Not A Cold Blooded Bitch.
I Wish For Someone To Notice my Serious Side.
I Wish For Someone To Not Take Advantage of My Nice Side.
I Wish For Someone To Understand
I Wish For Someone To Talk To Me When I Need Someone To Talk To
I Wish For Someone To Laugh At My Jokes
I Wish For Someone To Not Be Angry At The Bad Things I've Done, But Help Me Get Over Them.
I Wish For Someone To Make My Life Worth Living
I Wish For Someone To Care
I Wish For Someone To Love...

Help Me...

Sigh,

I'm Used, I'm A Tool, I'm Taken For Granted.
This World Sickens Me, Everyone Just Doesn't Give A Shit. I Can Never Get What I Deserve, I Do So Much, I'm Unselfish.

But Why Does This Happen To Me?

I Know I'm Probably Gonna Have Someone Say "OMG EDWIN THERE'S PEOPLE IN WORSE SITUATIONS THAN YOU JUST SHUT UP YOU FUCKING SELFISH FAGGOT"

But I'm Not Gonna Care If I Don't Know Them, So Shut Your Cunt.

Anyway,

I Don't Know Who To Trust Now, I Just Get Things Thrown Back At Me. For All The Nice Things I Do...

I Do 1 Bad Thing, and it feels like the whole world's against me.

Sigh, Fuck This...

Someone Help Me...

I..
I don't know what to do now...

I wanna kill myself..

I wanna end my life...

I don't want anymore pain...

I can't trust ANY of my friends...they're never greatful for anything, They just say thanks and move on... They never showed gratitude.

My Mum and Dad give me shit at home, they call me a failure, an accident, a waste of human life.

Perhaps they're right, I can't do anything right half the time, I'm lazy, I'm easily distracted.

But I do care for my friends, I'd give my life for them...

I'm nice to everyone, I offer to help them sometimes, but they reject me in the most hurtful way.

People Call me a tryhard asian...

You Know What? If You FUCKHEADS who call me a tryhard asian, I'll tell you why I act full asian;

I grew up 2 years of my life in the phillipines, i ate rice and all.

And When my dad picked us up from australia, He always worked for 3 weeks. So I hardly got to bond with him. And So, I bonded with my Asian Mother and I did asiany things. That's why i act full, its my childhood habit, i grew up like this. So FUCK YOU TO WHO CALLS ME A TRYHARD ASIAN!

And What's worse, some people that i helped...called me a tryhard asian..for what i did for them...

They repay me with something that Just hurts me the most...

So now...

All I can think of...

Is Getting Away...

At Any Cost...Even Death....

Because I don't know who I can trust, or who to care for...

Thanks For Reading...<3