Someone Help Me...

I..
I don't know what to do now...

I wanna kill myself..

I wanna end my life...

I don't want anymore pain...

I can't trust ANY of my friends...they're never greatful for anything, They just say thanks and move on... They never showed gratitude.

My Mum and Dad give me shit at home, they call me a failure, an accident, a waste of human life.

Perhaps they're right, I can't do anything right half the time, I'm lazy, I'm easily distracted.

But I do care for my friends, I'd give my life for them...

I'm nice to everyone, I offer to help them sometimes, but they reject me in the most hurtful way.

People Call me a tryhard asian...

You Know What? If You FUCKHEADS who call me a tryhard asian, I'll tell you why I act full asian;

I grew up 2 years of my life in the phillipines, i ate rice and all.

And When my dad picked us up from australia, He always worked for 3 weeks. So I hardly got to bond with him. And So, I bonded with my Asian Mother and I did asiany things. That's why i act full, its my childhood habit, i grew up like this. So FUCK YOU TO WHO CALLS ME A TRYHARD ASIAN!

And What's worse, some people that i helped...called me a tryhard asian..for what i did for them...

They repay me with something that Just hurts me the most...

So now...

All I can think of...

Is Getting Away...

At Any Cost...Even Death....

Because I don't know who I can trust, or who to care for...

Thanks For Reading...<3

_-My Confession-_

This Is My Description Of The REAL Me.

I'm Nice
I'm Kind
I Forgive More Often Than Many People...
I Never Judge For Whatever Reason
I'm Always Judged For Minor Reasons
I Have been told I'm one of the nicest guys ever.
I Have been told I'm a rare type of person.
I Care For My Friends, I'd Die for them.
If I Had Someone, I'd treat her like the world...

Like..Seriously, It Would Be Undescribable.

I Go Out Of My Own Boundaries To Help Someone...

I Hate Being A Mean Person, I feel guilty For nearly everything bad i do, even if it was right.

I don't believe anyone deserves bad punishment,

I believe Everyone deserves a Second Chance..

But..

Why Does The Worst Happen To Me?
To Many People...
It Happens So Often To People Who Care, Who Give and Never Take, Who Sacrifice..

And This Is A Message To The People I Have Hurt...

I'm Sorry....


Thanks For Reading...

Prevented

I want you to see in my heart.
I want you to see in my soul.
I want you to recognize me.
I'm not..
I'm Not a ghost,

I May be to you,

but to me,

You are the stars that inspire me
You are the sun that brightens my day
A Moment without you is a waste of my time...
A Moment with you is the best moment of my life...

But Why Do You Prevent Me From Doing So?

It's The Question That I Want Answered...

But Will You Answer?

I Love You....

I Wish You Could See...
See Through Me...
See My Mind, My Soul...
That Being With You Makes Me Whole...

Angels Envy At Your Smile...
And To See It, I would Run More Than 100 miles...
Your Personality Is As Pure As Clear...
and Writing this Poem Just makes me want you here...

I Want To Hold You,
I Want To Kiss You,
I Want Your Touch
I Want Your Feel
I Want Your Love
Your Love That Is Real...




Edwin Kujawski 2009

Comment it yeah? ;D

Introduction UPDATE

This Is Just A Recent and more Detailed Bio Of Me.

My Name is Edward Lato Axel Kujawski Jr.

I was Born On the 8th Of March 1995.

I'm Part Filipino,Japanese and Australian.

I'm More On My Asian Side Since I Grew Up 2 Years of my Life in the Phillipines,
and When we moved to Australia, Dad Always had to work and I lived with my Asian Mummy :3

I Love Playing My Xbox 360 xD

I Like To listen to RnB,Hardtrance,and a little screamo.

I Value my Friendships and bonds quite a lot. I understand the true meaning of a true friend.

I Love to eat, omg, my appetite is massive O_O"

I like Poetry.

I'm Emotional, But I Can Stand Up For Myself.

I Know What I want in life, and I Will Achieve it! DATTEBAYO! LOL

I'm Not A Goody Two-Shoes At School, But I'm Not a full rebel, xD

I like magnums and potatochips...(AND EAT IT)

I <3 Death note and Anime...A LOT

According To My Friends, I'm Cool, and Funny ;D


Thanks For Reading...

Blog Part 2.

This Next Part is Dedicated to my Friends...

1.Liam Curtis Johnson

For 12 Fucking Years, We've stuck together, We're like spongebob and patrick....
Except We're Not Gay. LOL
You stood up for me all the time, against anyone, no matter if they were higher or lower than you. You Always Stook up for me, You taught me so many things, You made me..Me.

So Here's My Thanks For the 12 years of joy you brought to me.

I will stand up for anyone who picks on you, I will smash the fuck out of anyone who will threaten too. I'll Return the favour for the 12 years+

2. Hiep Nguyen

You Are Like A Fucking Brother To Me, Always There, Always Available.
Man You and I have had our fights, but who gives a fuck. Your My Fuckn Bro Man, I got Your Back. I Promise (Y)

3.Dylan (Shortee) Needham

You Sir, Are A Mad Cunt, Whenever I need to chill out, or need someone to talk to, I can just head down to yours. It hasn't one BIT been a boring moment hanging with you man...

(Y)

4.Lisa Nguyen

OMG 4!!!! My Ultra Mega Tall And Tank Twinette, You make me lol half the time on msn, We have so much things in common it's scary .___." But We're Just Epic/Cool Like That Aye? xP

I Promise I'll be there when you need it twinette <3

5. Peter Nguyen

You Are A SMART Boi!
You help me with my homework, and anything in the school category,
you make class fun. Your a Nigguh, ;D (Y)

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Kay Thats The End Of Part 2

Blog part 1.

Hello,

Been A While Since My Last Blog...

My Mood:

Confused/Dizzy/Suicidal.

Imm Write This With Several Parts...

First Up:

Friendship

What Is It To You?

Is It Just A Person That You say Hi to? and Talk to? Do You Consider That A Real/True Friend?

It's Not To Me...

A Friend Is Someone Who Would Get Out of Their Own Bounadries Just To Make Sure Your Okay, Just To Make You Smile...

A Friend is A Person That Will Make Your Life Worth Living...

Make it Complete...

But So Many Others Toss Away That Oppurtunity...

I Myself...

Have Valued The Friendships I've Had...

but The others have tossed it back at me, Treated me like shit
In return for all the things I've done for them.

It Hurts So Much...More Than Anything....

But So Much People Have Forgotten The Meaning Of A Friendship,
They Forgot what it means to have a bond. And They Don't Care If That Bond Was Cut...
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